You have been living in another country for 2 years. I know you earned money by yourself and the amount is far from the amount you earned in your country. However, you should think of your future and stop buying luxury stuff. This is one last time, ok?
I do not want to share anything or anyone belonging to me.
I know I am possessive and it is can be an distinctive trait of people under the Scorpio star (though I am not completely into this type of thing anymore). But I can say that, I am extremely possessive. I want to remove this negative character of myself. I-can-not-do-it.
Sadly but true.
I would rather be alone than to be with someone else and then I was left all alone.
Recently, I am addicted in buying cross-body bags from the common brand name such as Colette by Hayman to Nine West and upper-class such as Oroton (the levels of the brands are perceived from my point of view only, it will vary to different people). I spent too much money to them, I gradually become someone I hate the most: shopaholic. I am in the state of wanting to show that I am not poor and I can take care of myself. Such a hopeless myself.
I am moving out of my aunty’s house after nearly 2 years staying with her and her family. I was so eager to depart with all the preparation and organized stuff. From the moment she asked me to move, I was looking for everywhere with both depression and eagerness. My standard for a room shifted from renting a house with 4 people for 2 bedrooms and 1 bathroom to 2 people sharing a room with an ensuite bathroom. Finally I found one by luck, sharing with a friend who is my colleague and we study in the same school as well.
Tonight, 10072017 is the first night I am officially out of my family’s reach, officially living without them.
Tonight I feel sad and alone.
Tonight I want to cry but I can not let my mother know.